Like Backandscared, I couldn’t look at my face in the mirror for the longest time. Alcohol had wrecked my skin. I had bad rosacea, bloodshot eyes and puffiness everywhere. I wore a lot of makeup to cover up. I don’t remember exactly when I stopped feeling this way, probably about a year and a half. I can look at myself again and don’t feel the need to wear much makeup. More than seeing my healthy skin, when I look at my face, I think about the changes I’ve made on the inside from quitting drinking, which glow on the outside. It gives me a proud feeling.
The other behavior that took a while to stop is rushing around. I always felt hurried when I was drinking. I was rushing to get my next drink. Even after I quit, I still had that feeling like I was always racing against the clock. I’m so much more relaxed now.