Yea, there are times I want to isolate and stay away from my support systems. And I too, sometimes feel like, this is all BS! Nothing works. I'm probably there right now, as a matter of fact. I've not told anyone, except people here on SR that I'm out of work. Although I'll be going to my old counselor Monday, that's because my doctor wanted me to.
I'm wondering, though, Don. Doesn't PAWS raise it's ugly head around anniversaries? If so, perhaps some of the issues raised in those links could be helpful?
I hope you feel better soon. Keep us posted -- you KNOW we care...
Shalom!