This is an amazing post. So insiteful.
It took a while for me to feel comfortable breaking the old habits too.
I remember towards the end that I would be afraid to stand up or walk down the stairs after drinking. I knew my balance was getting very compromised. The brain damage was escalating.
Here I am after all this time clean and my balance is still improving. It is like getting gifts from God, when I am at an age when I am supposed to be having things taken away.
When I first quit, I couldn't drive on the freeway without tremendous anxiety. Heart racing palm sweating anxiety.
That lasted for a year or so. These days, I feel my anxiety is more normal. I am not sure what normal feels like, but i know i feel 100% better than 4 years ago.
Thanks.