4th day without a drink, 3rd meeting
It's been a while, but I am going back to AA after 5 years. My longest sobriety has been at AA and lasted over 11 months. I did not throw my books away and was able to find them. I've heard it said and it is true for me, if you leave AA and start drinking, you have a belly full of booze and a head full of AA. Also, the disease of Alcoholism continues even while not drinking and gets worse, this is also true for me. There are other things said at meetings and the literature that are similar, these things can and probably will happen, and one is death.
The first meeting I went back to this week is very early in the morning and I was frightened. I knew there was a lot of day left after the meeting and that was really frightening. But I realized on the way home that day, I needed to pick up my Big Book and read.
I made it a point to reintroduce myself and keep it short and to the point. I am extremely nervous in front of people and I find sharing to be very difficult. I also don't like to share how stupid I can be, but I know this thing is serious and I need to stay focused, because the liquor store and a lot of trouble is right around the corner. Glad to say I am not in any legal trouble.
I need to read, get an inventory started, do 90 meetings in 90 days, listen and share a little bit. I've been told to just listen for those first 90 days. But I feel if I do need to share, I think I should, just keep it to the point and short and find a sponsor.
Perhaps some of you can help me with starting over.
On that, thank you SoberRecovery for letting me share.