It is fascinating to me reading this thread, not about the act of grieving, but about what we grieve for and how it shifts as we deepen into ourselves. It is also clear how we are on unique journeys that have points of contact that can resonate.
For me sadness was less hard to feel than anger but when I finally let the anger hit I had a lot of it....and a lot of it was unresolved grief to go with it.
Now as the anger is clearing what is coming up is the loss of time.
I spent so much energy trying to be the "good" girl, trying to control things and trying to stuff my feelings that I struggle to turn to the joy and lightness of life.
I think it was in Brene's work that she helped me to see that my numbing was not just for the hard stuff, but that it also numbed the passion and fun for me.
I don't regret my life in any way. I am blessed by having the space and time to give myself time to heal. I am grieving the loss though in a little kid way for not always knowing that I deserved the abundance of the world.