Day 1 after a relapse
Hi guys I'm back on day 1 I'm so upset with myself as I nearly had 2 months I made myself so ill was horrible and abusive and said the most hurtful things to the person I love who sticks by me and forgives me and even tells me not to beat myself up I just can't ever forgive myself for how I've acted after doing so well my home looks like a tornado has been through it and I'm covered in bruises....why do I do this? what on earth makes me feel like putting that stuff in my body is acceptable when I act the way I do all I'm happy for is today I know I won't drink as I would have done waking up to this... going to be on here a lot today I just feel raw lonely and so so disgusted with myself