Originally Posted by
ZeroNowhere570 
Right back to where I was. Even more depressed. Even more angry, arrogant and disrespectful to those that love me. I wish God would just take my life already so I can end this cycle.
You are not thinking clearly. Pour out the alcohol, get some rest and things will look better tomorrow. Trust me, everybody here has relapsed. It is not the end, just a bump in the road to sobriety.