Hi Bonnie
the only way to learn to live live to the full, without alcohol, is to do just that.
You'll get some bad times., but a lot of good times too - and we're here for support through both
I found I was stronger and more capable than I ever knew - but I needed to stay sober to find that out.
You will too - you don't need alcohol - you don't need to 'take the edge off' that way - think of some healthy alternatives to relax.
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