Oh dear god, today was rough. Not sure how I’m going to make it through the rest of this trip. But we’ve arrived in Florida, and my kids are way excited to be here. I’ve picked up on those feelings a bit and am starting to get into things.

Tomorrow will be tough. I have to take care of some business regarding my stepdad’s will. Also, it’s just hitting me ... the sadness over losing him. And now what to do for my mom? She can no longer live independently.

One thing at a time though, and it’ll be okay. Right? Whatever happens, we will go to the beach. Everything looks fine when you’re sitting on the beach.

Anyway, I’m rambling and tired, but glad to be sober. G’ night.