I feel at this moment like a blubbering mass of stpidity. I am a hastily thown together mess on good days and a reeking bag of vodka on bad days. I don't know waht to do. Everone has given m good advice but it's up o me to stop. Thatnks for your words and god bless.
I've ben reading a lot and thinking a lot about Jesus emerging from his tomb, alive and conscious of the whole world. That's the way I want to feel. I want to live life again and I promise that I'll keep posting as long as anyone is willing to read it.