Good for you for going to the meeting.
I didn't check out of the emotions of life, just into a new one.
One where I made all the rules. Where I was king. Where I was whomever I wanted to be. A fantasy world, brought to me by alcohol.
An escape from reality. When reality matters. More than a fantasy world.
I was emotionally stunted in normal human growth by this unreality for many years.
Then I had to catch up to my age and act it, once I got sober.
Now reality I take one day at a time. It works.