You can see by the number of my posts that this place is great for getting thoughts out and getting feedback.
AA would have been great I just could not find a sponser I trusted. I wasn't relapsing and often felt the meetings were stressing me out.
So I dont drink anymore. There was some serious tough days. Friday's after work, 3 day weekends, new years etc etc.
But, I don't drink anymore. I decided I was a non drinker that accidentally got addicted.
Work the steps, get cbt, take meds, whatever....just don't drink. The brain damage is forever and I will crave off and on periodically forever.
I don't drink anymore.
Thanks.