Hi Emma, I think the initial 6 months - a year are filled with ups & downs... reflection, self doubt and grieving. I oddly started grieving my ex girlfriend a few days ago - after doing so well at moving forward. I think this is normal. Once the anger goes away, somehow there’s positive reflection that happens... even if the relationship was toxic and abusive. The brain tries to fix what was damaged... and many of the bad experiences seem less evident, at least in my experience. This is where I need to be careful and not backtrack at all! You are moving along, Emma! Keep going! In a year... hopefully all this will start to be a distant memory.