Mercedes, toward the end of 2015 my husband died. It was a sorrow and grief that hung on for dear life. It was a pain I did not think would ever stop.
So I became proactive and began grief counseling. It has helped enormously and continues to help me as I help my mother face her final cancer battle and my stepson now that his addiction has left him brain damaged and possibly heading toward long-term nursing care.
Counseling might not be something you've considered, but I've found it very helpful. It has certainly helped me to see the sunshine again!