I'm clean for a good long time but I craved this morning around 5 am.
Why?
Because everything is going amazingly well. My life is about as normal and ideal as I can hope for. I want what I have.
So my av, who will be with me for the rest of my life and beyond, says...go for it. Have your cake and eat it too. You can get away with one or 10 little slips. A few snorts of high quality top shelf tequila will clear you out. Go for it. Nobody cares and nobody can stop you.
I have to fall back on my foundation sober training. Everything Sr taught me. Then the crave is gone.
I know it will return and I am ready. In the mean time, life is amazing.
Thanks.