will be surrounded by lots of drinking, and old friends who only knew the “drinking me” and who are still heavy drinkers.
This is where the old Mum thing of 'if everyone else jumped off a bridge would you jump too?" comes in.
Other people drink, they may even look as if their having a great time - heck they may actually be having a great time at that very second....
I can't drink and have a great time because I know I will drinking past that social drinking point into illness, self hatred, paranoia, secrecy and self loathing.
I can stay sober and have a great time though
I can laugh and be silly and stay up late and dance about and fall into bed as the sun rises if I want....
Whatever you want to do you can do sober.
If I thought I was missing out on anything sober, I'd be romanticising drinking too - but I know I'm not missing out on anything.
It's like my world and my self expanded again when I stopped drinking.
If you're not sure you can say that, then maybe you have more work to do?
If you're determined to go on this holiday maybe that's the lesson to work on and come away with Willow...how to love life sober, suck the marrow from the bones....and genuinely not give a damn if other people are drinking or not?
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