Bodhi, I sorry to learn about your Nan. You have a lot of hard stuff to contend with there. My mother died when I was in active addiction and it is one of the deepest regrets/biggest sadness of my life that I wasn't sober for this. If I could turn back the clock and do it sober I absolutely would. Staying sober is one of the biggest kindness that you can give yourself right now. But it sounds like you have got this, you are handling it so well. Thinking of you.