Hang on to your quit. i relate to what you are going thru. I am on Day 1 after throwing away 26 days.
I think we need to find new coping mechanisms other than drinking and other than "running away" from uncomfortable confrontations.
Continuous clean time is certainly important but I found for myself that if I do not develop more mature and effective coping skills that I will end up crawling back to the bottle.
The good news is that there are alot of books written on this topic and there are effective solutions in CBT and in psychological therapy.