Hi Auggie! I too suffered childhood sexual abuse from two different males, one a family member. I believe I may have undiagnosed PTSD and I certainly have social anxiety and generalized anxiety that is rather controlled but intense when triggered. I have suffered with panic attacks and was told by my therapist that its common in women with childhood abuse.
I have decided I am going to do group therapy. I'm all in this time, in terms of recovery.
Do you have insurance? Do you live in or near a metropolitan area with nonprofit mental health agency that can offer services for free or sliding scale? Have you looked into Better Help? It's an app but its cheaper than in person therapy. Lets figure this out.