“ But can I walk this without something giving way? ”
Flip, yes, you can walk this.
without something giving way? i don’t know. but since you’re looking ahead, you are likely able to consider what you might “allow” to give way. what you’ll need to make room for and what you will not have room for.
find your bottom lines , know them for sure and then you can stick to them no matter what.
and you are already planning on AA and therapy when you return. good plan!
i know, easy for me to say about knowing the bottom lines...not being sure of them seems part of your challenge?