Dandy,
I changed my life in my mid-40’s. I wish I had done it earlier, but it is what it is.
I was exhausted, and really just wanted some peace with myself and within my life. Quitting the drink was a leap of faith, as I knew there were many issues that led to my misery. Like many of us, I thought my only solace was at the bottom of the bottle, so giving it up was difficult. However, that decision has paid off in ways I didn’t anticipate.
It is never too late to reinvent yourself. We can all work towards being the best person we can be today. The fact that I had thrown away so many years drinking did not justify throwing away the years I had left. And behold, while life is far from perfect, there is a peace and serenity in sobriety that I never had while drinking.
Rather than “fixing myself”, I choose to see it as making better choices so I am at peace with how I live.
Best wishes,
-bora