Thanks everyone.
I handled it the best way I could, which of course was not perfect. I was so angry at myself I fell asleep fopr a couple of hours and when I woke up I realised the angry was aslo covering my fear of not having any work and all that would mean. So I hit the phone and talked to a few people and put things back in perspective. Fact is I did not get offered the work, reason is that they wanted skills I don't have and they should have been advertising for those skilss.
Best is I did not hurt anyone including me and I did not pick up. I need to get to a few meetings though.
So onward and upward and I get to work on releasing my anger and dealing with my fear.
My thanks for your support.
Kevin