I drank and still crave the drink sometimes because i am an addict for the rest of my life.
I have been doing the same job for about 23 years and I think I am good at it. I believe in myself all the way.
My problem is that I go back and forth, almost every day, resenting, then respecting my bosses.
I know that I am a ninja at the job. The best on the planet. But, my boss ranks me bottom 10%. He treats me with respect, but he basically ignores me otherwise.
So, i have to still believe in myself, respect my boss, and get along with my coworkers.
The answer is there. I accept it at times, other times i get waves of demoralization.
I get paid way too much to quit and the job is pretty easy for me.
Sober life. Nothing is perfect. I made this bed.
Thanks.