Hi Bonnie - I went 19 months alcohol feee with no difficulty at all and my husband also drinks most nights. Then one night on 2016 I decided there was no risk of me going back to my old ways so I shared a bottle of wine with two friends in a restaurant. Within a short time I ended up drinking on an almost nightly basis stuck in that endless cycle of remorse, despair, self-loathing. And not actually even enjoying the taste of wine after the first glass. And still I went on drinking. It's taken about two and a half years to get to where I am now which is in the very, very early days of sobriety. Don't do it to yourself. It really, really isn't worth it. All the best.