Thank you NB. Life is still life but I am definitely in a grateful space and I just feel like this is my time to get sober get it right and work it. I was so tired heading to my meeting but i stayed an hour after the meet talking with a fellow addict, the meeting itself was great I made myself share even if just a small bit and i really just love other alcoholics lol. Some are sketchy as hell but for the most part i love other aa people and it feels like a big family trying to do the right thing and stick by each other.