I wish I could somehow bottle what it is that happens after some sober time. I wish I could film it or write about it eloquently or implant it in drinkers or whatever trick would work to let them actually feel what happens with sober TIME. Not three months, more like a year.
It is absolutely worth the battle.
I was a lone drinker too. Money and time, a terrible combo for people like us.
I hope you make it back this time canguy.