Thanks for all your replies and feedback guys. Someone said that whether I'm an alcoholic or not is just semantics- that kind or resonated with me.
I'm on day 11 now, it hasn't been too bad, I've turned down several drinks including at a formal ball with my wife last Saturday. Dancing without drinking is a little tough, but I wasn't overly tempted. Sunday night I really wanted a drink- but got past that.
80% of the time I am able to have 2 or 3 drinks and be fine- what society would define as responsible drinking- but there have been hundered of times over the years where I have pushed well past that limit.
I've been getting really bad anxiety for the last couple of years- and there has been times when I've self medicated with alcohol- taking 3 or 4 shots in a row to feel better. I definitely recognize that to be a problem and that's something I am certainly trying to avoid.
Just going to keep taking it day by day for now, thanks for listening.