Very weird morning
Im 2.5 months free of everything.
This morning the scary, dissociative, panicked feelings I drank to try and escape all came back.
For the first time in 2.5 months I felt that pathetic, horrible desperation to go out and buy a six pack to find "oblivion".
Im in bed with my dogs and writing this post to just get it out.
Yes I desperately want to drink. No point denying it.
just trying to let it pass
Thanks for reading.