Hello and welcome, you'll find a lot of support here if you really want to quit drinking.
Only you can decide whether you're an alcoholic or not. I am. I just haven't drank in ten years. I'll always be an alcoholic. I'm one drink away from a drunk.
I started drinking at fourteen and drank alcoholically for thirty five years.
And I can tell you, save yourself some misery and stop now, if you seriously think you have a problem.
Not drinking ever again is hard to handle, that's why I try not to one day at a time. I can manage that.
You're having health problems from drinking. You state you have a hard time controlling how much you drink once you start.
I had those two problems. They're note very good signs, I'm afraid.
Maybe you could try quitting for a month and see if you can control it.
Whatever you decide, we're here for you. And I hope you stick around.