Popped in to ask how you are, too, Jeff! So, as always, what Dee said
Two things also popped into my mind - like mariposa reminded me, plenty of times I care too much. Getting used to and more even between that and the meh took time and effort and "re-training...."
I'd also add that no one deserves or has to feel bad- I mean that in one sense, bc I def didn't feel I deserved good feelings when I was getting sober. And like we've been saying, dr help (and for some of us, me included, meds) that help are ok, good (and sometimes, take a bit of time to accept it's fine to need!).
Keep going - and sharing.