I'd echo what Scott said - and I'd say for me, it was a little tough to discern what was indeed "meh" (or, as I learned, the weird feeling of "being OK" which I confused w down sometimes) or more. Getting psych help was key.
I forget if or I think how long you have been sober so I may be repeating what you've heard from us before - it takes time. Getting used to the ups and downs- and, again, for me with meds and counseling and AA- was a big part of early sobriety. Especially the first yr.
Keep sharing- glad you've been here with us a while.