I have been in treatment for my depression for a couple of years now, sobriety for only one, and I have found that the two go together when I am working to stay settled and sane. Congratulations on such a successful 20 years on your recovery, but the depression is also relentless, I know. I don't know how I made it through so many years of both. You are doing the right things for your health, and I hope that you will pull fully back out of it soon. We are always here.