Hey JADIII,
I remember a few years ago trying to drink away the pain for over a month and landing in the hospital with severe pancreaitis. I was on morphine for a couple of days and nearly died.
Fear can be just an evil presence in our lives. Look at how fear was consuming me over this court date. You really helped calm my nerves! I just wanted to say that.
I think we can agree that alcohol will only worsen your situation. It is so cunning, baffling and powerful but with the tools we can wade through any difficult situation. Do you have support program you can lean on? AA and this site has really helped me through some tough times.
I'll be be praying for you! This too shall pass. : )
Garrison