Originally Posted by
2018LizAnon 
Yep. I'm no expert on the psychology here, but I felt exactly the same way. It got to the point where I was probably less functional (at least mentally) than him. It's good that you are aware this is happening. It seems counterintuitive to think that you would be "addicted" to someone who treats you poorly, but it's almost like the worse it gets, the harder it will be to break the habit. It's tough to break out of the cyclical patterns of hopes and disappointments.
Last night I called him to say hi. He ended up calling me clingy. I got so frustrated after weeks of me doing what he wanted or needed it still wasn't enough.
The thing that gets me is he did the 360 within the span of days. Now I've been suffering for months. Although he had bad behavior he never treated me disrespectfully. He treated me with respect. I think that's why its hard to wrap my mind around wth happened.