Originally Posted by
Oleaceae 
with a loving wife and a teenage son that is sweet but one day will challenge my habits if it goes on. There comes a time eh?... trying to talk myself into it
Have you looked into AVRT or read Rational Recovery? I'm not an AA person, though in no way am I opposed to it, and RR was absolutely instrumental in getting me sober.
For me, my family has been the leverage I needed to put down the drink for good. I have a boy who is about to be a teenager and a newborn - it's exciting for me to think that my newborn will never know me as a drinker and that I will be/am able to make up to my son the years I spent in the bottle during his life. There is perhaps no deeper, more meaningful thing that having a family, my wife and my kids, who can look you in the eyes and rely you on in every way. I could not be that person when I was drinking. I am now. A different world. Not always easy, not always fun, but with more meaning and life and peace than I ever, ever had before.