I've been without intoxication for over 4 years. I still have a ton of issues, but being an active drunk is not one of them.
When I wake up and feel like hell, the first thing I remember is...thank God I am not drunk at least.
Being a non drinker, after so many years under the influence, left my less capable of dealing with conflict and anxiety.
My boss has seen the worst of it because of his personality. I explained to him that he sends me into a state of fight or flight sometimes.
After telling him that, it seemed to open the pathways for a while, until he got a promotion.
Now, he barely acknowledges my presence. It doesn't bother me that much, but I feel like one day he is going to want to talk and I may not handle it well.
But, I am prepared for it. I plan to look him directly in the eye, with my full power and deal with him.
That is the plan. That should remain intact until contact.
Bottom line...everything's better when I am a non drinker.
Thanks.