Coming here was a good idea Lucy. You say you want to drink, but do you really want the hangover, bad behavior, embarassment and shame that come along with it? Because you can't have one without the other remember.
Look at the "halt" ( Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired factories - are any of them a problem? Many times taking care of those things are what really needs to happen anyway. Coming here can certainly help with the Lonely category - stick around.