I am almost 2-1/2 years sober in my early fifties now. I had several relapses when I first started trying to get sober several years ago. I can relate to the feeling of not knowing who you are and being lost without the crux of alcohol. It took me a lot of deep soul searching and weekly therapy for a year to start finding myself, establishing my core values and purpose. I am occasionally still uneasy in social situations, but now I believe it has more to do with being an introvert than missing alcohol. I prefer to spend time alone or with a few close friends than being at parties or in large group settings. That is just who I am. I have a lot more self acceptance and confidence in sobriety now than I ever have, even when I am required to meet new people or engage at work functions.
Early sobriety is tough. Keep going and it will keep getting better
