Awwwww caesarr its crazy when i hear from other alcoholics and addicts because i always hear at least a piece that really resonates with me but your op word for word could have came straight out of my mouth. This is hard but i want it to be your last and my last and it’s definitely possible!!! I hear you on the doing what’s uncomfortable i need to get that through my thick head too. We’re not special were just addicts and there’s a way out of this seemingly endless cycle.