Hi 5upersonic. I'm glad you wanted to talk about what's happening. I'm sorry for the painful time you're going through. It's good that you're doing all you can to take care of yourself.
I had to give up on my husband, who I treasured. He showed no signs of admitting he needed to quit - the way you are. Whatever happens with your marriage, you'll be free of alcohol & ready to lead a better life.