glad you are able to make it here and to AA,ceasar.
i had quite a bit of fear,too, when going to meetings early on. in order for me to get help and change, i had to face those fears and allow the discomfort to happen. i had to have the courage to do what was necessary to receive help. courage didnt mean i didnt have fear; it meant i would do what was necessary in spite of fear.
it was a bugger having all eyes and ears on me when i spoke but when i spoke,people shared how they solved the same problems, which turned out to be through the program of AA.
have ya read the big book to learn what the program is and the promises that will materialize by working the steps?