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Originally Posted by
ImNotThatGuy 
I know where this disease leads, and I don't want to go there. I need to quit for good. It's easy for me to stop because the physical addiction has been kept a bay, but I need something to keep me from picking up that first drink.
Knowing you need to quit is fine. I drank for ten years knowing I needed to quit. Knowing didn't translate to doing anything about it.
So you know you NEED to quit. Can you ACCEPT never, ever, drinking again? Always and forever saying "No" to the voice in your head that tries to talk you into drinking?
If you can accept never drinking, do everything in your power to support that decision.