Tursiops - I like to use the vertigo tool too. I believe I even named it yesterday when it was happening.
I am looking forward to when many weeks or months pass with no attacks. I think with every victory, I become more resolved.
I know the key for me is separation. Also, someone responded to the relapse post (and I am going to go find it again) about how we have to remove any positive reason for drinking from our conscious.
I am beginning to enjoy some of the benefits of sobriety right now... and donít want to lose them. I finally got past the insomnia stage about a week ago. I am getting great nights sleep again.
I appreciate you taking the time to respond and continuing to remind me I am not alone in my struggle.
On we go...