yes that sounds like a good idea. And youre right, I might still be able to have kids myself but the problem is, I cant even imagine wanting to have them with anyone else at this stage. Nor having strength to start anew with someone else as I considered us as THE couple (if u know what i mean)... Btw, I dont know about the adoption laws but being single mother Im not sure if i stand the same chance for adoption as if I would be a part of the couple. Also, I always somehow believe that the best possible scenario is for child to have both parents. And of course, that is not always possible but you know what I mean. All in all, thanks for your support and kind message. It means a lot in this moment!!