Congrats on going to meetings and sticking with your sobriety.
For me, it is a life and death matter and not just a quality of life issue.
Please keep coming back to meetings.
Nothing, including AA meetings, are fun when you are withdrawing from alcohol.
The meetings, and life generally, get better once you have been successfully separated from alcohol.
Please continue to keep us posted and, as we say in AA, keep coming back.
“All modern American literature comes from one book by Mark Twain called Huckleberry Finn. American writing comes from that. There was nothing before. There has been nothing as good since.” - Ernest Hemingway, Green Hills of Africa