Yep, as Ghostlight said, you'll never have to go through this again if you choose not to.
Most of us can't do it alone. There are several ways of getting the help we need, AA is just one of them. I went to outpatient treatment, and it was great for me. I also went to AA - took me a while to find a meeting I really liked, but I kept trying. AA is good for me because I need the face-to-face contact with other sober folks and I also found out that helping newcomers is a huge help to me. I'd keep trying to find a good meeting. Just my 2 cents.