Thank you Hopeful 4.
I had a good counselling session today, and we talked about how as time has moved on (especially in light of the years of sobriety I have now), I am generally more connected to my feelings and less numb.
Re-visiting childhood trauma therefore feels more upsetting and painful as a result.
Although it hurts, it’s all part of the healing process.
We talked about self-care while we are working through this stuff, and I’m going to make a little project of it...start a journal with healthy recipes in and make a note of what I’ve done to look after myself, and write down all the many things I have to feel grateful for etc every day. I need to rest, relax, eat and sleep as well as I can and start to look after my body as well as my mind. I spend so much time looking after people it’s easy to forget the basics...I’ve been neglecting that badly. Just not drinking isn’t enough to keep me well.
I think I will get through this now ❤️