Originally Posted by
charx53 
I do know it is hard. I am not an AA person either but without a community that understands.. it is rather trying.
Yes, it is hard - SR is such a community however. So is AA, and lots of other recovery communities.
And as others have said, getting sober will probably be one of the hardest things you will ever do - maybe the hardest to be honest. Whether you are an "AA person" or not really doesn't matter - the hardest thing you will have to do is accept that drinking alcohol is simply not an option- not in any quanity nor at any time. AA is a program that can help you do that, but you have to accept the premise above whether you chose AA or any other program of sobriety. Even if you didn't choose a specific recovery method, you still have to come to terms with the fact that if you drink, bad things will happen - always, every time.
SR provides a community for you to learn about many different ways of going about the business of quitting and staying quit - I hope you can spend some time reading about it. That might help you make the decision to quit or accept that quitting for good is the best plan.