Sobriety is hard..
My name is CJ. I am 26 from Eastern Connecticut. I've been struggling with sobriety for over three years now. Alcohol is my vice.. as is marijuana but I've yet to quit weed with fear that I'll relapse and turn to alcohol. I've replaced my behavior with the over eating of junk food at night and it makes me feel worse. Weed helps but I think my anxiety is just getting worse and worse as the days go by.
I'm not sure what to do. I've tried finding AA meetings but it seems harder than I feel it should be. I need support but I lack it because I am constantly pushing everyone away.. I fear getting close to people because I think they will do me wrong or suck me into my bad behavior loop..
I am sad and overwhelmed.. and everyone thinks I'm this happy go lucky guy.. sigh.. I think I need more like-minded people who understand and can relate to addiction..