You're right. I'm so all over the place still with thoughts and emotions. This is all new, I haven't had the opportunity to even call a therapist or counselor yet for help as it's the weekend. My head knows the truth and that I can't fix him. He just doesn't want it. My addiction to him or his addictions, are driving me crazy with the obsession. I am trying.
Right now I have no where else to talk or vent or ask questions. I feel bad for even posting here because I feel that I'm not being positive. I'm exhausted mentally, not doing very well physically because of the stress and pain, and I just want some peace.